Fallen Through
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
OMG !!! I seriously hav a freakin probe
This is a post bout my freakin probes n i`m
suppose 2 tell them 2 da welfare rep , abby ,
but i decided not 2 care bout ppl say of wat
i tink bout them cos she is included in it so
only da ppl who read this will noe how i feel.
But 1st i want 2 tlk bout my mother ... Tat
freakin bitc* wats her probe . My exam over
n i wan 2 watch naruto on cartoon network
at 10 - 10.25pm. And then she don let me watch
. Its like oh ur exams results is very bad go n
slp now but then exams is already over n i
always wake up early in da mornin plus its only
a 25 mins diff between my normal slpin time.
But its like i hav 2 flip here n there on my bad b4
i can sleep so its usually 11 pm then i really fall
asleep so its like once ONCE in a blue moon i
will stay up late 2 watch naruto ! N its jus ONCE
K ? Plus it doesn even help my studies if i sleep
earlier at all . Its up 2 me 2 noe howi wan 2 study
n i don really even pay attention in class . I don
even noe a freakin single ting in sci so 4 da whole
50 min i completely COMPLETELY dono anyting
at all . SO mummy too bad if u hav a child like me.
Urgh ! And my so-call friens who i always hang out
with after sch which is like no choice cos we were
always 2 gether cos got cca , nd 2 film , coincediently
finish stayin bac or wateva . Then we always go 2 da
video world 2 crap K ? I noe callin them stupid is bad
but then in class they`re like completely don noe me
at all n not their very good good frien anymore . Do
u noe tat this is not a very good description .
Yesterday i could tink of so many tings bout them tat
i even cried CRIED on my bed. Its so unfair k . I did so
much stuff 4 them , then in the end i got noting in return
NOTING at all . They don even come n find me at will
2 start a freakin conversation , they don noe wat i feel
inside . I`m really goin insane cos las year its a bit like
da same but so much better alright :( I tell u i feel even
lonlier then e*i*l* n t*j*l* k . At least they got each other
i don even hav anybody . Thse ppl only like me 4 my point
shoes n noting else n i bet they tink i`m lame .
I`m so lonely k . I really hate 2 see tat they r not takin any
iniciative ( i tink rong spellin ) jus 2 tlk 2 me i`m sick n
tired of goin up 2 them 2 tlk jus 2 get a few seconds
converse. If u don wan me 2 tinkthis stupid way then
come right up 2 me 2 say it .
When da 3 of us 2gether then they will treat me like i`m
their gd frien in class they treat me like a nobody , i tink
its cruel . NO COMPLAIINS EITHER !!! I`m havin a serious
depression rite now if u wan JUS come counsell me if u dare
I seriously in nd of good loyal friens unlike them. AND i fell
down in sch n hit my head :)) It was kinda funny . Y i`m
bein so random ????
Told u no complains !!! Do u tink i wish 4 this ? Do u noe
how hard is it 2 keep this in my heart . N i`m sufferin
frm depression !!! Y won anybody understand !!! Its
not my FAULT !!! sori if i offend any1 of u :(
Posted by Athena at Tuesday, May 19, 2009